START THINGS WITH ANOTHER YAWN

Once again it's nothing new
Gotta go out and get the time just gotta find somethin' to do.

Don't know what I should do but I just want to get away.





So I have this quote, and I kind of like it. It speaks to something that's been bothering me for a while. You know those conversations you have (usually when you've been drinking) where everyone talks and talks and no one is really saying anything? And everyone is trying to sound smart? Conversations where someone says, "zac you're a philosopher, right? as a philosopher what do you think???" And I could respond, "Well, based on my reading of the empty messianism of Derrida, coupled with his focused emphasis on impossible forgiveness propelled by the energy of the eternal paradox, I would say that yes, in fact, bunnies did in fact create earth and they control our destinies." But sometimes I just want those conversations to stop cause we all quote things we half know and I know we're trying to understand our world but sometimes I just can't do it anymore:


"What can be said at all can be said clearly, and what we cannot talk about we must pass over in silence." - Wittgenstein

YOU ASK FOR WALLS I'LL BUILD THEM HIGHER

We'll lie in shadows of them all.
I'd stand but they're much too tall.
And I fall...

February stars
Floating in the dark
Temporary scars
February stars...




Hi folks. I made a website all by myself. It's not very good, and it's only temporary until my programmer guy is back in town. Check it out...

ZAC BOSWELL


Also, it is cold outside, and I have a headache. I sent off my resume to three places today, just for starters. Probably more tomorrow and I'll follow up with phone calls. As relaxed as it is being unemployed, this morning I really wanted to go to work!

I have to call MARVIN tonight to get my first check. I hope he's nice to me........

Damn these posts are boring...

CAUSE I'M COOLER THAN A POLAR BEAR'S TOENAILS

Oh hell, there he go again talkin that shit
Bend, corner's like I was a curve, I struck a nerve




For Emily + Aud... let's do a tour again soon.






UNEMPLOYMENT, DAY SOMETHING

It's today, it's Sunday. The young creatives group I'm on the board of tried to throw a party last night. No one came. The band was too loud, our events promoter guy didn't do any promotion AND DIDN'T EVEN SHOW UP. But of the people that showed (15!) I met some cool people... so I guess there was some sort of goodness.

These blog entries are becoming meaningless, but I will continue to do them because I imagine this group of people that is so interested in my life that they hang on my every inane word. Yeah, I'm that strange. And narcissistic.

I checked the weather for the trip to MN this weekend. Yeah. Here's what it looks like:







As usual, FUCKING ROCK.

THIS IS MAJOR TOM TO GROUND CONTROL

I'm stepping through the door,
And I'm floating in the most peculiar way,
And the stars look very different today.





UNEMPLOYED, DAY 4

Went to Michigan Works! this morning. That was fun. The dude at the desk tol me he was gonna get me a job (or make sure I got one) right wawy so that I would pay my taxes. I have no idea what that's supposed to mean. IS there some underlying meaning? Does he think I'm cheating the system or something? MOTHERFUCKER I DON'T HAVE A JOB SO EAT A DICK.

Also, unemployment is kind of nice – seems like I could get used to it... except really it sucks cause you know that even though you're gonna get a check for doing nothing, it's really not that much money and, well, you don't have a fucking job, which sucks.

Anyways. I'm working on my portfolio right now, should have a website up by Friday... I'll post a link.



So how is everyone? Are you enjoying the snow? How about the show? I hope so! You should come sledding with me if you haven't already. It's quite fun. Especially when you make a train and go off a jump sideways with your legs wrapped around Jill and Clinton's legs wrapped around you (from behind! AWWWWKWAAARD) plus the other sled strapped to you so that the full weight of you lands on Jill and clinton's stork legs clobber your face. FUCKING ROCK.

Seeya.

FALLIN SKIES BABE, OPEN EYES BABE

Can't you see what lays inside, babe?






WELL THAT WAS FUN.

Got laid off today... I am unemployed. Company is tanking. This is probably a good thing since I was sick of that job. Now I gotta man up and get a job I like. Luckily it is on as good terms as something like this can be... bossman wrote a letter of recommendation, and is asking around on my behalf.

So now I gotta get that resume polished up, put the portfolio together, stock up on ramen, and get a new job.

Also, I filed for unemployment today. My that was fun. I have to call some office now and then call a computer named MARVIN.

Life is full of goodness.

AND YOU'RE NOT EVEN HERE, ON THE COLDEST NIGHT OF THE YEAR

I took in Yonge Street at a glance
Heard the punkers playing
Watched the bikers dance
Everybody wishing they could go to the south of France...

*EDIT* This was a cheerful post, but now my boss just cut my hours by 10 hrs. per week. Time to get a second job for reals, huh? Fuck this shit.

Anyways...

Welp, I'm not going to New York next weekend. Ryann decided we weren't ready to go since we don't have the company (BlackLamb) ready to go, and we don't have any of our business cards, etc... that the trip wasn't worth it. It would be fun, but we (or more like she really wanted to make new contacts and find suppliers for the retail end of the operation.


Baby, it's cold outside... what happened to our SanFran style weather, huh?



WHAT IT IS, HO?



In other news, there is a monster in the boiler system at the Hillmount that roars every five minutes or so. Not fun.

I was at home at lunch today and on FSN was Tottenham v. Newcastle. This made me think I should pay some more money that I don't have to get Fox Soccer Channel cause man then I could watch Premiership and Champion's league and UEFA and Eredivisie and Serie A and Spanish League all day long. Would you come watch them with me? Or will I become a soccer obsessed hermit? You decide.

NERD ALERT: I am very excited for this coming Sunday because the new BATTLESTAR GALACTICA IS ON!!!





Let's watch!

SUCH A PRETTY HOUSE, AND SUCH A PRETTY GARDEN

Beware possible upcoming self-indulgence and mildly depressing but ultimately uplifting but truly in the end quite selfish entry. But what is a personal blog if not inherently selfish.


THINGS GOING WRONG (ranging from actual problems to little annoyances)

1. Screwed up expensive job, held financially responsible for 25%
2. Mom broke hip sunday morning
3. IRS sends tax bill from last year for unreported income... completely my fault
4. Tire has annoying slow leak, went to get it fixed, but after 20min drive forgot wallet
5. Screwed up a smaller job at work, told boss I ran it by him, enduring screaming from boss and threats of termination
6. Job just really is getting old
7. Water in shower decides when it's going to be actually hot and just mostly hot... now I am cold all day


Now some of those things are horribly in consequential, and i could as usual go on bitching about all the little things. But I need to do this... it's therapeutic.

Next are the things going right. And here, I'm going to avoid the obvious things that, were I a truly grateful person, I would be dancing in the halls about... like "roof over my head" things. And it's not really a counterpoint argument: "my tire is flat" WELL AT LEAST YOU HAVE A CAR. That is true, but that's not the point here. I don't think.


THINGS GOING RIGHT

1. I've been good at saving money
2. I got Comcast to renew my cable deal for only 8 buck more a month so I'm still saving a lot and I keep my best friend
3. I got a french press for xmas
4. I might be going to NY in two weeks
5. I am going to Minneapolis in three weeks
6. The shittiness at my job is, I think, starting to harden me and give me a little more courage to start looking for a way out


So really, yeah. Things aren't so bad. I just get caught up in it all. And I'm so used to being in control and I feel like I'm losing my mind.


This is also something that cheers me up:



IT'S THE IPHONE AND I CAN'T AFFORD IT!

MY LEATHER SO SOFT

It's finally friday here (and there, I suppose).

It has been an interesting holiday season – good presents, good friends... mostly just craziness. It's been great to see Dean, Kristen, Grant, Ben&Christy.... It makes me long for the old days, for the old community. But some things you just have to let go.

Oh update on the big mistake at work. It was my mistake, and I've been asked to pay a portion. I'm going to do it, but I'm also going to sit down with the boss and have a long talk about risk sharing – if I'm going to share in the risk I should share in the profit. He is paying me hourly wage... thus it is his risk. I'm fine with not sharing profit on high-profit jobs, but then I don't want to be liable for the risks we take. Like if I worked at Applebee's and broke 30 glasses, would I have to pay %25 of that cost out of my pocket? I dunno. The whole situation is unnerving.

And it's made me even more discontent than I have been. I keep getting this itch to leave, but I have nowhere I REALLY want to go. Mostly right now I just want a new couch. That will be very niiiiice.

I leave you with this video, which cheered me up quite a bit.

View From the Top

I just was out on my roof (someone left the door open!). Here's the view... can't wait till the deck is done. It will have grills. I have to tell you though, these pictures and my horribly amatuer photography don't do the view justice.